understanding khushi (chapter 2)

chapter 2

in the early hours of morning
Arnav and khushi were sleeping peacefully after long time finding solace and peace in each others arms.
khushi was snuggled completely in his chest and arnav had interlocked both his hands around her. khushi had buried her head inside the crook of his neck, her one hand held onto his collar tight and other was wound around his waist.

The early morning light slighly disturbed Arnav's peaceful slumber and he slowly woke up feeling very peaceful and conent. then he felt some light breathing on his neck to realise that his khushi was all plastered into him. breathing in his neck, holding him tight. he watched both of them in such a state and a small smile adorned his face. His determination further cemented to always keep her this close to him.
He looked at her, she looked so pure and beautiful ,void of any makeup. he wondered she could give his any million dollar model a run for money even without any make. Thus making him realise that no wonder he had so much talent to identify beauty and so it was so apt for him to have such a beautiful wife to complement him perfectly.
He could not remove his eyes from his sleeping angel and at that moment a thought crossed his mind .......may be some day when he and khushi will start there own family, he will have a small beautiful daughter just like khushi , who will just like khushi snuggle comfortably in his arms and he will have two angles snuggled within confines of his arms..................,he blushed at the thought of his.Just as he was about to move bit , khushi and  moaned at loss of his warmth,making him go back to his position. He held her more tightly and pulled her towards himself and she came in without any resistance.

After an hour or so Khushi started to get awake so Arnav pretended to be asleep. Khushi woke up realizing her position.She tried to wriggle out but found her laadgoverner to be very strong. She found so much peace over his face that she couldnot will herself to wake him up. So she just decided to enjoy his love and warmth because may be this was all that she may get in her this life. So she remained the way she was the whole night, just seeing her love Arnavji. unkown to her ,her devi maiya had different plans for her.

20 minutes later arnav thought that only keeping her confined will not help.He will  have to show her that he did not meant what he said and he had no intentions of ever leaving her because she was, is and shall always remain his, his wife and that he loved her dearly and that contract was never true....it was absolutely fake.He was pondering on how to show that to khushi when he thought why show? why not just give khushi all he would give to his wife.....i.e. LOVE ,ATTENTION ,POWER OVER HIM and demand his rights and love equally.
He opened his eyes to find khushi looking into his eyes. The trance broke when khushi realised she was holding him, she panicked and looked at him fearfully ,awaiting his anger and started to remove her hand from his collar and waist when arnav held and stopped her hand, she feared but what he said next just blew away her fears and senses
 " Khushi its ok!! relax you can hold onto me whenever and wherever you want, it dont mind it infact I love it. You dont need to be afraid, you can do that, you are my wife."
just as khushi was about to pull away she found arnav climbing on top of her and pinning her belo him very gently, she voiced herself " what are you doing?" to which he moved closer to her ,when he was almost brushing her cheeks he spoke " you are my wife and I am allowed to love my wife anyway I want" then he gently kissed her on both her cheeks and got down from top of her and left for his jogging.

after a few minutes khushi came out of the trance to understand that what just happened was real and she felt absolutely happy,she got up,tided the bed and collected her clothes and left for bathroom. while bathing she realised that arnav was trying to woo her and she cannot give in to his wooing. Making her decision she got dressed and moved down for preparing breakfast.

The house was quite and she busied herself to prepare the breakfast.  Just then Payal entered the kitchen, she seemed lost and khushi understood maybe akash jeejaji was upset with her. Her doubts got confirmed when akash came down but didnot even glance at her jeeji very unlike his usual lovey dovey self.
She again cursed herself for being the reason. Just as payal left the kitchen, mamijee entered the kitchen and cursed her for such state of anjali bitiya. And khushi cursed herself for being there.mamajee was so engrossed in ranting curses and blaming her that she didnot realise that khushi had burned her hand and was trying to stop her tears. After few minutes after giving her instructions about the breakfast she left. Khushi paid no attention to her burn and carried on her work.

All the breakfast was layed on the table, she had taken care that everything was according to anajalij di's diet chart. The whole house slowly came down for the breakfast and everyone was surprised to see anjali also coming to the table. just as khushi saw her coming she escaped from there not wanting to hurt her more and went and sat on the terrace crying her out. Whole time during the breakfast two people missed khushi and exactly knew why she was missing. her arnavji and nani knew what she was sacrifising for this family.
the breakfast was joolly and happy affair.

after breakfast all dispersed. Arnav told akash and him shall work from home for a few days. Arnav went to his room to find khushi missing. He went searching for her to find her on the terrace, sitting in the shade doing some piece of writing in some thick diary, but soon was distracted towards her swoollen eyes and he knew she had been crying. he went towards her and without any warning picked her up. not listening to her constant ranting brought her to his room and sat her on the recliner. But khushi got up and said
"You dont need to do all this.....
 why are you doing this.........
 as we know I am the cause behind everything ............
then just let me suffer for these nine days before end of our contract...................
already I am the reason for shyamji's betrayal, anjaliji's state, and now jeeji's state.......

pause

i was the reason behind breaking of jeeji's first marriage and I cannot afford again become the reason of her failed marriage. I can see jeeji and akash jeejaji drifting apart and I am the reason.....so I beg you to not make my going away difficult and let me complete these 9 days here quitly and I promise I will go so far away that not even my evil shadow will touch you and your, my jeeji's family..............................

just let me suffer........

see the reason you married me was anjali ji and I married you for  my jeeji
so let us not complicate it . lets not bring our feelings and guilt into it. Let the contract serve its purpose
and then you can move ahead...........
marry some girl with status and money........
have a happy family with her..........
your di will be happy.....................
mamiji will be happy......................
akash jeejaji will be happy hence jeeji would be happy......................

and about me, dont worry, I am so use to this Pain that I no longer feel it.
My happiness holds no consequence..... no value.........
if so many people can be happy at my cost .... than why not........

I am nobody........just an orphan......and shall always remain so.........MY happiness is not Important........so just let it be.................."

she chocked and fell down crying.

Arnav couldnot take anymore , his patience snapped. he knew his anger would do no good but right now he had to tasks in hand. firstly to tell that what all she has said is all bullshit and secondly put some brain inside that dumb Akash and mamijee too.
The words ........
cause behind everything.......
let me suffer for nine days.......
i will go far away............
you marry somebody........be happy............
i am use to pain......i no longer feel it...............
my happiness is not important....................

echoed in his mind, determined to wipe away all these depressing thoughts and accusations from her mind and heart and to make her understand her importance in his life, his family, her family and her happiness,he in two steps moved towards khushi picked her up. Pinned her to the nearest wall. trapping her between her two strong hands.......he calmed himself down.........and spoke to her in a controlled and authoritative voice.
his voice and manner was not of  buissnessman or a brother. It was of a husband, a poccessive husband, a lover and most importantly a protector an soul mate who was out to protect what was his, his khushi, his wife . And he shall protect it at any cost.


....to be continued...........