Understanding Khushi (Chapter 46)

Chapter 46

Later that night

After a lovely dinner, all headed to their rooms after good nights.

After bolting his room Arnav pulled Khushi into his embrace but he realised that Khushi was lost somewhere, her form was tense and stiff. Her eyes unfocussed and lost as if in deep thought. Arnav watched her with great curiosity. He just wished for strength in case her fears were returning back.

A while later Khushi pulled back from his embrace and pulled him to the lounger in the room and pushed him into it and launched herself into his lap.She looked into his eyes.

Khushi: Arnav promise me you won’t get angry.

Arnav: What is it? Are you……….

Khushi: Promise me first………..you won’t get angry.

Arnav: You are scaring me jaan. What is it?

Khushi: (irritated) Arnavji unless you promise me, I won’t ttell you unless you

                promise me,  you laad governer. I know otherwise you will boil over.

                As it is so much anger resides on your nose. I can’t trust your anger.

Arnav: What the Khushi ! 

Khushi: Please listen na…….

Arnav: Ok. Promise………

Khushi: No, Say I promise I won’t get angry on anything I say.

Arnav: (gritting his teeth) I promise I won’t get angry on anything you say.

              Now tell me fast.

Khushi: I want you to …………..

               See I am positive that I will get well after this operation.

               But you never know what can happen in life. Life is unpredictable.

               (Khushi pulls Arnav’s palm on her head and keeps it there.)

Khushi: Swear on me that if god forbid I don’t make throught it you will marry

               again. You will not stay angry with life. You will not remain lonely.

               I want you to………………………………….

Arnav was angry, very angry. His body was trembling with anger, but he was controlling it. But he could not imagine anything happening to his Khushi ever.Loosing Khushi was not an option he could survive without. With great will he controlled his anger and with grinding teeth continued. He held her firmly from both her shoulders and pulled her closer to look closer into her eyes ………………..

Arnav:  You want me to………………………

Khushi: You promised me, you won’t get angry…………please listen to me.

Arnav: I am listening……….tell me, which new idotic idea has come into your

              brain. I am listening…………..I am not angry. Tell me.

By the end of his lashing, his anger was subsided with the realisation that it was his selfless Khushi who was he subject to.

Arnav: Tell me, you want me to……………………what?

Khushi: (Gathering courage) If I don’t survive this. I want you to……want to......

I want you to get married, have a soulmate, a lifefull of happiness,have   kids. I just want you to live life like the way you would live if you have me.

Please I don’t want you to get angry with life like you did 15 years ago.

I love you this way. I hate that Khadoos ASR, the one you were before meeting me.

Promise me that you will marry again, have kids.Swear on me.

Swear on me. Please Swear.

He was not all surprised. He should have known that his “wife” would have thought about him as well.He visualised Khushi even shortlisting a girl who he could be married to. He decided to try a different way with his wife.

He faked to be still angry. He held Khushi in same fake anger mode. And angrily bit out

Arnav: Do you realise what you are asking for? How can you even think like 

              that. How can you think I can love somebody else. And  more than that

              how can you even think that I would father children of anyone who is

              not you.

Khushi: Arnavji……………….. you are not understanding…………..

Arnav: Enough Khushi, but you are the one not understanding. Nothing is going

              to happen to you. Can’t you get that simple thing into your small brain.

              You shall be the one to love me, for all my life with me. You shall be

              only one to father my kids. There is only one women in this world with

              whom I have and shall have relations to father a child that is only you.             

Khushi: We need to be practical. I will not be able to rest in peace if I have

                to leave you like this. I will be guilty.

Arnav:  You don’t have to be guilty. A simple way is you just stay with me

               always and always. And it is always going to be like this. You with

               me always. This topic is over.

Khushi: It is such a serious matter. I am not leaving it before you swear on.

               I am not leaving it until you promise me what I want. 

Arnav: Khushi just because I promised you not to be angry, does not make

              Sure that I won’t get angry on your silly demands.

Arnav was still faking to be angry.

Khushi had tears in her eyes.

Khushi: Arnavji if you love me, you will swear on me. I have never asked you

               for anything for myself. But today what I am asking from you, this time

               I want it from you.  yeh vaada mughe chahiye. Aap mana nahi kar sakte

               mughe.

Arnav:  I am not giving you any thing of this sought. And if you are so incessant

              or admant on dying then you don’t need to be worried about me

              because the moment your heartbeats stop that will be the last of mine

              too. So you don’t need to make me swear for anything jaan.

With that Arnav had swooped down Khushi into an intense fierce mind boogling kiss. He was demanding.