understanding khushi (chapter 9)

Chapter 9

When khushi saw the caller id on her phone  “arnavji calling”  some kind of warmth spread through her body. She contemplated whether to receive the call or not. After the fourth ring she picked it up thinking he is calling so late must be something important and prayed that Anjali di was ok and without a hi or hello asked  “ you are awake till so late. Is everything ok? Is di fine?” he was touched by her concern and replied “everything and everyone is fine khushi. By the way why are you awake till so late? By the way you look beautiful in white colour and with open hair” khushi without thinking spontaneously replied “so you have called me so late at night to tell me this” by the time she said it she realised that she was in white night dress and her hair were open. She continued “ How do you know that I am in white and my hair are open?” while khushi was busy in the call facing her back to the window arnav had climbed through the window and had almost reached her and he answered her last question in her ear “ I keep track of your every movement and breath khushi” khushi was shocked on hearing his voice on her other ear and turned around in haste and was almost going to fall when arnav caught hold of her and steadied her. Khushi asked “what are you doing here and that too at this time of night. And you came in by the window. Di will get hurt if she came to know that you secretly came to meet me, why not you understand anything. Di needs you and you are her only support system and it will be better if you do not make her any more insecure and attend to her only and you do not need to do any kind of formality for me. Its just matter of 7 more days and after that you shall be free of this contract marriage thing. Anyways its better that I too get habitual to living away from you (tear form in her eyes and her voice trembles) from jiji and shantivan. Its just 7 days and then everything would be fine.” 

Hearing this arnav could not control any more and he knew where khushi wanted  to take this too but she did not know that he was ASR just because he loved her chattering and allowed her to fill his ears does not mean he has lost his ability to speak and stop her chatter. He was thinking that once he wins over khushi the only way he will ever use to stop her chatter will be by sealing her lips into a kiss. But today he would have to do with the other method and he just held her firmly from her shoulders and said  “ 7 days it is. Khushi will you let this marriage get over so easily. Is it that easy for you.“  khushi snapped and said “ I am telling you what the fact is, the purpose and duration of the contract is going to end. It was just a deal and never a marriage. So lets just get over it and not make it more difficult by bringing in emotions and guilt. Lets be practical” arnav got little angry at the answer he received and he held her more firmly and said “Ok lets be practical, lets not tell anymore lies to anyone and lets go outside and tell everything to your family and then we will even get witnesses for our divorce i.e your amma and babujii. You  want no emotions so come lets tell everyone that I married you for contract and blackmailed you and you want to end this marriage now.” Khushi’s eyes teared up and looked at him in shock and arnav almost melted but then he hardened again and said “come, I am waiting “ he knew this will shut her up and she would at least stop fighting him and then he will confess his love to her.

And exactly the same happened khushi staggered and held on her study chair for bit of support and thought please devi maiya do not make this more difficult for me I can bear my pain but the pain and suffering he will face with me being in his life would kill me and weakly walked towards him and voiced slowly  “ why are you doing this and what will you get . It will hurt di , you deserve a better life partner,your family deserves a better daughter in law ,who has class and status and who can fit in your world as Mrs. ASR and you and your family do not need to get embarresed and more importantly  you and di deserve  happiness and no more losses and I will only bring sadness in your life.” She wanted to say more but could not, all her energy was draining and she held him weakly. Arnav knew she had lost all resistance to fight and now he will conquer her her heart and soul in such a way that no lover had ever done before ever. He held her firmly but she was sagging so he pulled her flush against his body so they both were joined toe to neck and wound his hand on her poccessively. At that moment khushi mind rang with a thought that if I die also after today I would never complaint because all I wanted was to be someday be held this way in arms of the man I love and my wish has come true.

Arnav held her like that and gently lowered her to the bed and came on top of her , he pinned her down below him but was gentle and made sure she was not getting hurt but she felt all of him and he was all ready to answer each of her question.

He began “ Khushi today I will answer each of your question and trust me when I shall complete …………………..” he could not find words he started again “I shall make you Mrs arnav singh raizada forever and ever” this line did what so many words could not do they touched her soul and she felt elated.

He continued “ khushi when I saw you first time in lucknow I fell in love with you at that moment. I knew you were mine from that moment. The second you fell In my arms I knew your were the part of me which I was I never knew i did not have but always craved and waited for. That second you completed me. your eyes from that second have not left me alone for even a single moment. Main darr gaya tha .i was scared and afraid , I always worked with my brain and kept my heart in control but tumhe dekhne ke baad mera dil mere khud ki baat nahi manta. I was so scared of my heart loosing control that I started hurting you to make you go away and did that media drama. But for once in life I am thankful to shyam that he saved you from goons otherwise I would have killed myself( khushi put a hand on his mouth but he continued) and that brought you to delhi  to my office and  to my life….. I again hurt you to sent you away even that lavanya setup was just to make you go away because the more I saw you the more my heart became uncontrolled and told me that you are a part of me and I need to surrender before you. Diwali night and those half completed kyon farak padhta hai were just the trailers and deciding to marry lavanya was just to make you go away somehow…………………….he paused , (khushi looked at him to continue and he continued)…………………….but the more I hurt you the more uncontrolled I became towards you and the more I fell deeply in love with you and your engagement was the fuel to my already burning heart. The thought of you belonging to somebody was out of question because your were mine alwaya and that’s why I broke that my relation with lavanya and the fact that even your engagement was broken was like medicine on my burning wounds. So I have always loved you. So that answers your first question.” Khushi was still pinned under him and now his weight felt so natural and infact very soothing.

“ and to answer what I want  is : I know you have loved me, still love me and will continue to love me and I know you will never marry again ever and shall always remain mine. you saving my life endangering yours and your not wanting  to expose me and defending me in front of shyam itself clearly shows you love me more than anything. So please whatever bullshit that you hate me and want to go away will not affect me. You are mrs.ASR and its never going to change, so you basically very well know I want you as my wife my lover my soulmate and as my mothers daughter in law. And I know what your heart desires so we have a whole lifetime if you want to fight out on this with me”.Khushi laughed in her mind at the irony of the time.

 To be continued…..

Arnav will answer all her questions one by one ……………………

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