understanding khushi (chapter 3)

chapter 3

Arnav though had pinned her down on the wall but his hands which held her were strong and firm but not hurting. He held her in a protective and poccesssive manner. He knew khushi had suffered ,that she had convinced herself that she has been destined to bear this hurt and happiness.

Arnav slowly came closer to her face and pinned her lower body with his lower body but it was all innocently and nothing deliberate. It was a natural response to her sagging body.He in a very calm and authoritative manner told her "Khushi you are not the reason for anything.... you are as much a victim as anyone else....even more , and you are the sole reason that shyam could not harm my di, me and both families. You are the one because of whom I am standing alive ......... if you would not have risked your life and saved me , I would have been dead .........." Khushi could  not bear the thought of arnav being dead ....she immediately hit him slighly on his cheek and started to hit him on his chest when arnav caught her hand but she did not stop. she ranted out " how could you just say that...... how can you talk about death...clearly when the thought of you dying kills me..........." .She was angry now, arnav still held her hands and she shouted back again. " Mr. ARNAV SINGH RAIZADA .......I know ,I am your contract wife ,but I saved you... do you understand that ...... and from that moment your life belongs to me ........do you understand this........you were the one to leave me ,when I warned you on the airport but you did not stop and walked youself  into a grave danger so just...............................................so you have absolutely no right on your life....it belongs to me........and dont you dare talk about dying."

Arnav could not believe his luck.he was thrilled.he felt like flying. khushi's outburst was like all his questions of last 14 years, his quest of last 14 years had come to an end. He got his answer that he belonged to her just like she belonged to him. His determination further cemented.
Just when he was about to answer her back ,a new realisation hit him, khushi was behaving wifely.......she was claiming her stack on him. if someone else would have said this ,he would have been torn to shreads , but the claim from khushi's heart thrilled him to core which even his million dollar deal could not provide him.

This whole though process of arnav provided khushi time to realize what she had said, and the fear on her face was clearly visible. Aranv saw that and immediately he leaned towards her and kissed her gently on her lips...... she was shocked and tried to move aside but arnav held her and pinned her back. And with new vigour and happiness, he tells her " Absolutely khushi....you have every right on me. So you can do anything...anything you want , just like I had and have every right on you.........". he was cut in between by khushi who asked "right on me.....?"  but arnav stopped her. "yes I have every right on you , since the time I first met you at sheesh mahal. and I too hate it when you talk about you like this. You are the most important person in my life. Your happiness is my priority. You are not born to suffer. You are not born to bear pain".He was getting angrier word by word as he remembered her words."you are not going to suffer I wont let you suffer, you will not bear the pain.....you say you no longer feel pain , yes you will no longer feel pain because I would not let the pain touch you.......Do you get it........" his volume was getting louder.He saw some realisation and hope in her eyes, but he was still angry.......he continued " Khushi I can not marry again. I am already married to you. You are my wife and I can only love you. and you shall be the one to bear my kids, my family ...no one else in this world can be Mrs arnav singh raizada. just keep this in your mind and just like you claimed your rights over my heart and life, I have the same rights about you. I know I have hurt you but Only I have the right to Hurt you, love you,kiss you ,pocccess you,claim you ,make up to you, wipe yor tears, pleasure you and fill your life with happiness and YOU ARE MINE SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO DECIDE ABOUT YOUR PAIN, IMPORTANCE and  HAPPINESS."

with that he saw that she had heard and absorbed everything and He just hoped that she believed some of it atleast. She was feeling drousy and arnav understood it was beacuse of all the crying, talking and stress.So he gently picked her up ,she had no energy left to protest and carried her to his side of the bed and laid her gently and asked her to rest for a while. And before leaving her he teased her "khushi just like you claimed right over me....i love when you claim right over my side of the bed........I hope one day we shall mutually share single side of this bed." her eyes widened and she blushed with a small smile and asked "how.....?"
arnav was amused at her question and decided it was better to answer her question, just to give her what he and she are going to share as husband and wife. He came closer to her and wispered in her ears " i mean me on top of you or may be you on top of me.......".she blushed more and he left her to see over with his di and two more idiots in his house akash and mamiji.

Anjali's Room
Arnav entered di's room and found her to be smiling ad knitting her a sweater for her new born. He was relived to find her like this.When anjali saw his chote ,she called him to sit near her on the bed.  Arnav somehow found her relaxed and normal unlike yesterday. She was loving her child again. It was a good sign. He came and sat and asked her "are you alright di?". anjali understood what he wanted to ask, but before answering him she hugged him and started to speak. "i am fine chote. what I did yesterday was a sin and I know how it must have hurt you...I am sorry and I promise I wont do it again.I know and understand how much you and everyone care and love me. ". Arnav could not understand but he thought that his di must be absorbing shyams betrayal now and was moving past it , little did he know that his di was stronger than him and she was over with shyam this morning only.
Arnav replied "Its ok di, after what happened I understand........and " but anjali interrupted him " No dont talk about it, its depressing, lets leave it. And after you married khushi ,you have stopped answering me. its ok, but I still love you."

arnav knew he had to answer his di today "no di, its not like that. just listen to me di, I know you trust me ,
Di , I had married khushi not because I loved her but because of you" anjali got curious "Khushi became my wife because of you and your child, so that I could stop shyam from hurting you."he clenched his teeth and cleared his throut." khushi married me to give shyam chance to reform back after knowing you were pregnant, and we thought he would change if he found that khushi belonged to someone else and you were pregnant. Khushi did not even know that I loved her. Infact before marriage I just cared for her, but it was after marriage I fell in love with her. Her concern and caring nature towards you was the most significant thing that made me fell more in love with her" anjali was speechless then arnav asked her "di you always said about some girl for whom my breaths will stop. khushi is that girl ,I love her a lot di. But she will never come between you and me di. just remember that". Anjali was so thrilled at hearing this from arnav ,she always knew khushi was innocent and perfect for his brother.she hugged arnav and said " i always know that chote. and I am so glad that you remember what i said and more than that , i have someone other than me to love you, care for you and dont worry i will teach her to trouble you too, just like me". arnav could not stop the chuckle that escaped. Finally his di and his khushi will again be patners to bring trouble , happiness and love back in his life. he said "how will i  manage two  crazy ladies" to which he was slapped by anjali lovingly.

after settling his di and content with the progress (though he had twisted the tale a bit, so that the marriage blackmail remained between him and khushi and khushi too gets due credit for what she did for his family...no their family he corrected).

he was moving towards akash only when he found mamaji, nani and mamiji in the lobby and he decided to get a closure over mamiji's matter. he came over to them and his posture and expressions told all of them that he was here for some serious buissness. he straightly came over to the matter and said " mamiji , i know you love me and di just like akash and you had dreams about my wife too. But I love khushi and she is the best for this family in ways more than you know, even me .So just because you love di and do not like khushi ,it does not mean you will put all blaim on khushi for no fault of hers" mamiji tried to interrupt but arnav cut her " just because nani told khushi to stay away from her and she went to di and then all that happened , you without knowing that khushi was not the reason behind di's such step, i talked to di, you came and complained me against her. And I like a fool lashed out on her. So just stop all this . Khushi is as much as victim as di. She has even endured more pain than di. she doesnot cry and complain that does not mean she is not hurt or broken". mamiji felt guilty and replied " i am sorry bitwa. I was wrong ,I knew it. dont worry I will reform myself" to which naniji says " you better understand that khushi has done so much for this family and she was the one to bring back our bitwa back safe." arnav could not control and blurted out " she almost died saving me nani. I had lost her. You know even yesterday I scolded her so much that she has taken the accusation all to herself. and you know she sits on the terrace with a duppatta on her mouth to cry so that nobody can hear her and notice her.So that di is paid attention too and she remains invisible." Both nani and mamiji understood his and khushi's pain and silently decided to bring happiness in his and khushi's life too because they knew that they both were the core of happiness to anjali and this house and after doing so much they deserve this happiness.

after settling with mamiji , his next target was to fix the brain of his idiot brother akash. who was just another fool like him. so he thought it was better that akash learns from his brothers mistake rather than doing it himself beacuse he might not be lucky enough to get a second chance. Just then akash came to him to get some signatures. Arnav asked him to follow him to the study. Akash followed him.




you will have to wait for next update to know how he deals with akash.....
.....to be continued

understanding khushi (chapter 2)

chapter 2

in the early hours of morning
Arnav and khushi were sleeping peacefully after long time finding solace and peace in each others arms.
khushi was snuggled completely in his chest and arnav had interlocked both his hands around her. khushi had buried her head inside the crook of his neck, her one hand held onto his collar tight and other was wound around his waist.

The early morning light slighly disturbed Arnav's peaceful slumber and he slowly woke up feeling very peaceful and conent. then he felt some light breathing on his neck to realise that his khushi was all plastered into him. breathing in his neck, holding him tight. he watched both of them in such a state and a small smile adorned his face. His determination further cemented to always keep her this close to him.
He looked at her, she looked so pure and beautiful ,void of any makeup. he wondered she could give his any million dollar model a run for money even without any make. Thus making him realise that no wonder he had so much talent to identify beauty and so it was so apt for him to have such a beautiful wife to complement him perfectly.
He could not remove his eyes from his sleeping angel and at that moment a thought crossed his mind .......may be some day when he and khushi will start there own family, he will have a small beautiful daughter just like khushi , who will just like khushi snuggle comfortably in his arms and he will have two angles snuggled within confines of his arms..................,he blushed at the thought of his.Just as he was about to move bit , khushi and  moaned at loss of his warmth,making him go back to his position. He held her more tightly and pulled her towards himself and she came in without any resistance.

After an hour or so Khushi started to get awake so Arnav pretended to be asleep. Khushi woke up realizing her position.She tried to wriggle out but found her laadgoverner to be very strong. She found so much peace over his face that she couldnot will herself to wake him up. So she just decided to enjoy his love and warmth because may be this was all that she may get in her this life. So she remained the way she was the whole night, just seeing her love Arnavji. unkown to her ,her devi maiya had different plans for her.

20 minutes later arnav thought that only keeping her confined will not help.He will  have to show her that he did not meant what he said and he had no intentions of ever leaving her because she was, is and shall always remain his, his wife and that he loved her dearly and that contract was never true....it was absolutely fake.He was pondering on how to show that to khushi when he thought why show? why not just give khushi all he would give to his wife.....i.e. LOVE ,ATTENTION ,POWER OVER HIM and demand his rights and love equally.
He opened his eyes to find khushi looking into his eyes. The trance broke when khushi realised she was holding him, she panicked and looked at him fearfully ,awaiting his anger and started to remove her hand from his collar and waist when arnav held and stopped her hand, she feared but what he said next just blew away her fears and senses
 " Khushi its ok!! relax you can hold onto me whenever and wherever you want, it dont mind it infact I love it. You dont need to be afraid, you can do that, you are my wife."
just as khushi was about to pull away she found arnav climbing on top of her and pinning her belo him very gently, she voiced herself " what are you doing?" to which he moved closer to her ,when he was almost brushing her cheeks he spoke " you are my wife and I am allowed to love my wife anyway I want" then he gently kissed her on both her cheeks and got down from top of her and left for his jogging.

after a few minutes khushi came out of the trance to understand that what just happened was real and she felt absolutely happy,she got up,tided the bed and collected her clothes and left for bathroom. while bathing she realised that arnav was trying to woo her and she cannot give in to his wooing. Making her decision she got dressed and moved down for preparing breakfast.

The house was quite and she busied herself to prepare the breakfast.  Just then Payal entered the kitchen, she seemed lost and khushi understood maybe akash jeejaji was upset with her. Her doubts got confirmed when akash came down but didnot even glance at her jeeji very unlike his usual lovey dovey self.
She again cursed herself for being the reason. Just as payal left the kitchen, mamijee entered the kitchen and cursed her for such state of anjali bitiya. And khushi cursed herself for being there.mamajee was so engrossed in ranting curses and blaming her that she didnot realise that khushi had burned her hand and was trying to stop her tears. After few minutes after giving her instructions about the breakfast she left. Khushi paid no attention to her burn and carried on her work.

All the breakfast was layed on the table, she had taken care that everything was according to anajalij di's diet chart. The whole house slowly came down for the breakfast and everyone was surprised to see anjali also coming to the table. just as khushi saw her coming she escaped from there not wanting to hurt her more and went and sat on the terrace crying her out. Whole time during the breakfast two people missed khushi and exactly knew why she was missing. her arnavji and nani knew what she was sacrifising for this family.
the breakfast was joolly and happy affair.

after breakfast all dispersed. Arnav told akash and him shall work from home for a few days. Arnav went to his room to find khushi missing. He went searching for her to find her on the terrace, sitting in the shade doing some piece of writing in some thick diary, but soon was distracted towards her swoollen eyes and he knew she had been crying. he went towards her and without any warning picked her up. not listening to her constant ranting brought her to his room and sat her on the recliner. But khushi got up and said
"You dont need to do all this.....
 why are you doing this.........
 as we know I am the cause behind everything ............
then just let me suffer for these nine days before end of our contract...................
already I am the reason for shyamji's betrayal, anjaliji's state, and now jeeji's state.......

pause

i was the reason behind breaking of jeeji's first marriage and I cannot afford again become the reason of her failed marriage. I can see jeeji and akash jeejaji drifting apart and I am the reason.....so I beg you to not make my going away difficult and let me complete these 9 days here quitly and I promise I will go so far away that not even my evil shadow will touch you and your, my jeeji's family..............................

just let me suffer........

see the reason you married me was anjali ji and I married you for  my jeeji
so let us not complicate it . lets not bring our feelings and guilt into it. Let the contract serve its purpose
and then you can move ahead...........
marry some girl with status and money........
have a happy family with her..........
your di will be happy.....................
mamiji will be happy......................
akash jeejaji will be happy hence jeeji would be happy......................

and about me, dont worry, I am so use to this Pain that I no longer feel it.
My happiness holds no consequence..... no value.........
if so many people can be happy at my cost .... than why not........

I am nobody........just an orphan......and shall always remain so.........MY happiness is not Important........so just let it be.................."

she chocked and fell down crying.

Arnav couldnot take anymore , his patience snapped. he knew his anger would do no good but right now he had to tasks in hand. firstly to tell that what all she has said is all bullshit and secondly put some brain inside that dumb Akash and mamijee too.
The words ........
cause behind everything.......
let me suffer for nine days.......
i will go far away............
you marry somebody........be happy............
i am use to pain......i no longer feel it...............
my happiness is not important....................

echoed in his mind, determined to wipe away all these depressing thoughts and accusations from her mind and heart and to make her understand her importance in his life, his family, her family and her happiness,he in two steps moved towards khushi picked her up. Pinned her to the nearest wall. trapping her between her two strong hands.......he calmed himself down.........and spoke to her in a controlled and authoritative voice.
his voice and manner was not of  buissnessman or a brother. It was of a husband, a poccessive husband, a lover and most importantly a protector an soul mate who was out to protect what was his, his khushi, his wife . And he shall protect it at any cost.


....to be continued...........

understanding khushi (chapter 1)

Khushi wiped her tears and moved out of arnav's room. She still couldnot believe that after everything she and arnav had undergone together arnav still held on to the Contract marriage thing. With great difficulty she convinces herself that she had kept herself in illusion that arnav will change towards her. It was true that arnav now knew that she was also a victim ,but he still considered her to be his contract wife.
With determination to accept the truth of her marriage and silently move out his house at end of six months, she wiped her tears and moved down the stairs towards kitchen. She prepared plates for everyone and sent them to everyones room with help of hp and jp. She sent Jp to arnavs room with his food ,medicines and coffee as she did not wish to face him. She then silently moves out of the kitchen and goes to the terrace to be able to cry freely so that nobody could hear her.


In the room
Arnav was pacing, thinking he would win back his khushi his wife before the end of six months.He silently looks out towards the poolside, moves out and looks at the sky and apolozises to his mama and khushi's parents for bringing out the contract thing to stop khushi from leaving and hurting khushi and also tells them that he had no other choice because khushi being selfless would not have listened to anything he said.
He further promises them that he would wipe away all her tears and bring so much love and happiness in her life that she will forget all these hurtful things she had to endure. He promises his mama that he will make himself repent everything wrong he did to khushi with his heart and his suffering and tears will act as balm of khushi's wounds. Little did he knew that his tears and wounds were the one that hurt his khushi most.

While he was entering back inside his room he realised somebody knocking his door .Just then JP entered his room with his food and coffee stating he had to take his medicines too, which were also lying along his coffee in the tray. JP exited the room,without asking arnav knew that it was his khushi who had sent him this food and medicines cause she was the only one who would care for him so selflessly after everything.

But little did khushi know that arnav more than medicines and food ,needed her,just a look of her and all his pain would lessen and his determination to woo her back would cement further in his heart.


When after an hour of crying at terrace khushi had decided what to do, she realised that arnav had made it all easy for her....when all this during the kidnapping trap she had forgotten that there was this news ,which will change everyones life forever. So she decided to go with the flow..... wait for another 10 days marking end of six months, till then stay as invisible as posssible. at end of 10 days return back to her buajee's house.
make arrangements for babujees treatment and her responsibilities before....................

She returned back to arnav's room ,to find him sitting on the recliner and his food untouched. Arnav knew khushi must not have had anything . He asked her if she wanted him to eat his food and medicines she must eat along with him. Khushi wanted to refuse but then she thought about his diabetes and he had to take care about himself because anjali di needed him. Realising that whether he loved her or not ,she had always loved him, and still loves him, she gave in and went down and got a chappati and small amount of dal for her.
Both of them sat silently and ate , khushi made sure arnav took his medicines and then collected everything to send them back to kitchen. She came back arnav's room to find him waiting for her. He looked straight into her eyes.... his eyes speaking loud volumes..... khushi understood each one of his emotions but didnot react. She had to be strong. Arnav broke the trance and said "Khushi I know, you and me both......." but couldnot complete it.He again tried "Khushi I know you understand me even when I am not able to say it.I just want you to share my bed with you. I promise I would not cross my limits and you know that,however bad I am,I still respect you and value your self respect. ...............(pause)......................Its just that sleeping close to you ,holding your hand gives me peace and serenity which I have never found in last 14 years. Its gives me power and determination to fight against anything that wants to hurt you and di........................please khushi........................................................................."

Khushi loves him so much, She knew whatever he said earlier was to stop her from going and he becomes desprate when it came to her and in his desparations he resorts to his anger which makes his take these hurtful ways. So she couldnot deny him anything.................Not when he was so vunerable..........so she moved ahead and lay herself on his side of the bed.... she did not know what came into her mind , that she occupied his side which he had never given her.............she waited for his anger ............but it never came.
He came over and occupied her side of the bed ,pulled the duvet, came closer to her , held her hand and slept almost instantly.

That moment khushi realised that it is going to be difficult for her. She knew Arnav held and protected what he loved. and she knew that moment that he loved her with all his heart and soul......he could not express but his actions speak spoke louder than his words .They way he held her, her hand. She knew that he was not the man who left what he loved. He was the one to fight till he gets what he loves. And she knew HE LOVED HER ,but She also loved him and She had to leave him to save him from the PAIN.Thinking over of taking each day at a time she too slept.........snuggling closer to her husband.......seeking his warmth......his love........Arnav too relaxed more and pulled her closer onto himself......making a silent promise that it is always going to be this way. His wife shall always remain within confines of his arms.He will make sure of that because he knew this is the only happiness he ever got in his life sent by his mother... and he will hold onto it forever.



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understanding khushi (overview)

this story starts from the day when arnav and khushi return back from kidnapping,shyam is exposed and anjali has been saved by arnav from killing her own child. arnav lashes out on khushi and then brings out contract to save khushi from leaving(same as the show).

but the twist is from now on. my story will now discover new levels of understandings and new findings in course of time .It will be a track of how arnav understands his khushi in a new way. not only arnav but his family too........


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